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i just cant move to wake up. normally im having a really bad nightmare at the same time as being awake but just cant move to wake up fully. i dont even have the words to explain how it feels i just think if i dont move i wont wake up and ill die. scary!!!

I used to think it was a Demon, with glowing yellow eyes that resembled Batman (that was the first time, when I was about 12) Scared the **** outta me at first, but after a awhile I became curious, and I tried to figure it out. At the time I had never heard of Narcolepsy or sleep paralysis or anything, so I was quite intrigued. To me, it felt like just as I would be falling asleep, a pulse or a wave would go through me a few times, and I knew that it was coming. Then something would be holding me down, and I couldn’t move or make a sound, no matter how hard I tried. Like I said, at first it was very menacing and freaky, always some kind of demon or something, but the more I started to accept it, the more it changed. After a few years of getting used to it (sorta) when I would feel it coming on I would just relax and accept it, and not try and fight it, and let me tell you I felt some very interesting feelings. It was like lucid dreaming…but things would happen around me and I felt as though I could manipulate the environment around me, probably subconciously altering my subconcious? lol I dunno.
It used to happen about 1-3 times a month when I was younger, and now it’s totally sporatic. Could happen twice in a week and then not again for six months. Anyways, the whole point of what I was going to say is that it actually happened when I went for my overnight sleep study at the sleep clinic! It was hilarious, here’s what happened : I thought in my mind that it happened as I was falling asleep, shortly after I lay down. Turns out, after looking at the charts and stuff, I had actually already been asleep for over an hour. So I must’ve fallen asleep almost instantly, slept for an hour and woken up and started falling asleep again, without even realizing I had already been asleep. Anyways, so as I’m drifting off, but still awake and fully concious, (or so I thought) I see a big orange cat push the door open, and I remember thinking to myself, ‘they have a cat in the sleep clinic?’ Then it climbs up on the bed, and onto my chest, and now I can’t move a muscle – except, I thought I was petting it with one hand. I couldn’t speak, and I tried and tried and tried, and finally I let out a yell and the cat jumped off and I guess I was really asleep after that. So going back, for the follow-up appointment, we lined up the charts with the video, and shortly after an hour had passed, you can see me trying to move my hand on my stomach, and after about 20 seconds or so, I let out a little grunt, (my yell, as I thought) I opened my eyes, closed em and that was that. It was really interesting to me that they caught that with a a polysomnograph, or whatever it’s called.
Anyways, I’m Dubb, I have Narcolepsy and it sucks. Hi everyone

OMGosh, this

Old Hag syndrome

is just another curse brought on by Narcolepsy!!!??!!!
AARRGGHHH!!!
To think that I was being tormented by some demon, I mean I fasted one time for 18 hours because I thought it might help!!

At 15 I thought I had a peeping tom who would stare at me through my bedroom window at night. I realized he wasn’t “real” after a while because he also stared at me at my mother’s house which was on the 2nd floor, he followed me on vacations, even to Europe and out west when I lived there, from basements to 4th floor rooms. So either he was the world’s most athletically-gifted, not to mention devoted, stalker or he was a figment of my imagination.

I thought I was crazy. It was only after I found out about Narcolepsy at 24 that I told anyone about the peeping tom. Oh, and he still watches me. It’s rather difficult to get rid of an imaginary stalker.

Quote from dubb on October 22, 2009, 15:31
Try embracing your fear and reaching out to him, or calling to him, or just simply accepting him. That’s basically what I did and it turned my demons into cats. though there could be more to it than just subconcious hallucinations, I believe in some paranormal stuff, and it could be that something is drawn to you… maybe? maybe not?

isnt it said that ghost spirits what ever u want to call them are more able to communicate when a person is in a differant state of mind like sleep? something to do with ur mind being more open or something.im sure i read that somewhere. so if there is any truth in it then how much is actually halucinations and how much is something else?????